Every Heartbeat is a Flower.
Think about that. Close your eyes. Wait until you can feel your heartbeat. Do those words ring true for you? This past week, this simple phrase helped me get through some serious transitions while keeping my cool. Even when I was completely exhausted and unsure about my next steps in life, I felt reassured by my own heartbeat. I didn’t expect to fall in love with uncertainty all over again.
That is, of course, until I heard this song by Sad Radio on Cassini.
Hello and welcome everyone! My name is Richard-Michael, and this is my eighth entry in my relatively new “Sounds of Summer” series. If you’re just tuning in, “Sounds of Summer” is about me exploring the songs that have impacted me the most this summer. My hope is that one or even many of these songs will resonate with you all in a somewhat similar manner. Without a doubt, there’s a lot to feel in these ambient soundscapes.
“Every Heartbeat is a Flower.” Sounds kinda hippy-dippy right? Even so, there’s something about this song that just settles the restless spirit. It’s the kind of tune I imagine hearing in a coffee shop or a yoga gym, long after the friendliest and most energetic people have rolled up their yoga mats or research articles and left for the night. It reminds me that, even though overt gestures of altruism are nice, sometimes what my soul really needs is a quiet space to sit, contemplate, and find my own bliss.
Bliss has been hard to come by lately, what with me leaving my job and sparring once again with the ol’ grief monster. In especially difficult moments, I turned to this song and let go of the tension in my body. The faint thrum of the beat pads and dreamy lap of electronic waves somehow lift me up and mellow me out at the same time. I close my eyes and can feel myself standing on a beach, maybe on the island of Kailua-Kona. Without a doubt, there’s something faintly tropical about this song.
I’m still in a state of transition — and by no means is that a setback. I will find a new job, and I will keep writing. I’m dating again and couldn’t ask for a better person to share in my ups and downs with. My muse and my empathic heart are just as strong as ever, and with songs like this one to keep me going, this rocky journey is becoming a bit more bearable with every passing day.